I was perscribed Zoloft about 2 years ago after I suffered from PTSD when my dorms burnt down causing me to lose everything. I continued taking Zoloft for those 2 years.
Last month I ran out of Zoloft and decided not to get it refilled to see what would happen. Surprisingly a lot of things changed, and for the better I might add.
After coming off Zoloft I've noticed the following:
- The intensity of my emotions has increased greatly. When I am happy, I actually FEEL happy. When I am sad, I'm truly sad. SSRI class drugs(I've been on a few) seem to make the world "grey." When using SSRI's there are no extreme ups and downs, every thing is kind of... blah.
- The artistic portion of my personality died completely while on SSRI's. I prior to the PTSD and Zoloft, I was an avid photographer. Once I started them I rarely took photos. The ability to express what I truly wanted to say also disappeared, which mainfested itself in both conversation and my writing. Now that I am not on Zoloft, my artsy side has reappeared.
- Strangely enough, Zoloft also killed my motivation. I gained some weight recently and have had the hardest time motivating myself to work out so that I could lose the weight. Now I have no problems with becoming motivated to work out. It's also helped me with my classes. I'm more motivated to study, due to this I'm in the top of each class.
- This is a weird one... Before Zoloft I almost ALWAYS sang when listening to music. With Zoloft there was no singing at all. In fact, I rarely listened to music when on Zoloft. That is strange for me becuase my life typically revolved around music.
- In a way, SSRI's seemed to make the depression worse. I would dwell on things while on Zoloft. For example: My girlfriend (of 3 years) and I have had some rocky times in the past, most of the time it led to me having moderate depression/anxiety issues. Recently our relationship went in the worst way and we've decided to take a break (which usually means a pending break up). This time I'm not worrying about it nearly as much. Coming off SSRI's has enabled me to become apatheic.
It's a given that this post doesn't have much of a purpose other than to share my personal experience with SSRI's, but I hope it provided you with something to think about. Antidepressants are supposed to make life better for those who suffer from depression but in my case it really put a damper on my life.
Have any of you had similar experiences? What are your opinions of SSRI's?