superposition

Hey, I'm new to this sight, I love to learn. But its seems like the more I learn the worse I feel and more disconected from our society. There's no whey I can stop learning. I'm so envious of the people born with down syndrome, They are so happy and free spirited, They never lash out in anger, they love everyone and have no expectations of others. Has anyone else expirienced this or am I just a freek?