lostinspace

here is an update. i dont remember how long its been since i posted originally. things are not better. i now have a marked more difficult time getting to sleep, tending to only be awake for about 12 hours a time, from the time i wake up. i was scheduled for a sleep study however could not attend it since i would have to be there at 10pm and ready to sleep an hour from then, when my hours would have me sleeping at 4am. its extremely difficult to live like this. i have a dental appointment on monday at 2pm that i cannot miss though having woken up today at 2pm after staying up until 8pm last night (excessive sleep for having stayed awake) i'm really not liking life. it seems i've gone through all the psych meds for someone with my symptoms and am taking the ones that make me most sleepy, but its not a whole lot at this point in time. i had memories tonight of times, years ago, spend at a hotel, where i woke up at perfectly normal times. i am mystified how things could have gotten so messed up for me. i have so many medical appointments that i need to go to and a great inability to make them. i wish very much that i could work but i cannot. its difficult for me to hope things were otherwise, i do, but its already been a rough ride.

they would have to be rain clouds. there weren't any planes or plane trails.

we all distinctly saw the same shapes in the sky. not just me. 5 of us.

i was at the house of a catholic priest with my mom, myself, the priest, and two of their mutual friends about to eat dinner. the priest went to close the curtains and called out to us "there is a big cross in the sky!" well we all proceed to go outside and saw a cross, a gate, a demons face, and other things that we at the time called apparitions. it was very high in the air and the color of clouds but it was unmistakeable distinct shapes and forms that we could all see and identify. up until a certain point in my life i thought they were apparitions. so did the others. when i heard about cloud seeding many years ago online i assumed someone had spiked the clouds. the shapes would form one right after the other and there were no planes to be seen though. i'm at a point in my life where i really want to know if it was something otherworldly or if it was what i had concluded, seeded clouds and man made.

serious ?: is it possible to make shapes out of clouds using cloud seeding ? me and a group of people saw shapes in the sky the color of clouds that i wont get into that i have always dismissed as having a human component to.. i was hoping i could get verification that it is possible to create distinct shapes through cloud seeding thank you

i was studying math tonight and found that i would forget what the key concepts being taught were about and had to reread the past to try and refresh my memory. i think i need assistance improving my memory because its just so horrible. i do take psych meds, have for the past 12 years. risperdal, trazodone, and prolixin. i would appreciate any help you can offer i realize that when i grow old my memory might be a big problem. thank you

I am a smoker who has been trying to quit. I have been smoking about 2 packs a day. I often get very stressed out anywhere 1-2 days without a cigarette and break down out and get a pack and tell myself i'll try to quit after that pack. I have never made it past 3 days with no cigarettes. its very stressful, i tend to be bound to my bed for that time, and i tend to want to give myself a break by not quitting. I am wondering if nicotine gum is a good way for serious smokers like me to quit ? seeing as i can't get past 3 days i'm wanting to use an aid instead of quitting cold turkey thinking i might be sabotaging my success. I also worry alot about cancer. i am very weak with alot of discomfort in my chest. i have been smoking since i was 21. i'm 35. i know quitting is how one would avoid cancer but sometimes i feel so bad i wonder if i have it. thank you

I am disabled and diagnosed with schizophrenia. I have quite a number of health problems which have prompted me to turn to a science forum for help on my biggest problem which is sleep. I tend to sleep excessively for about 12 hours or so after taking my medication. given that i have been awake enough to my sleepy on my own. without my medication I most likely would not be able to get to sleep at all. as far as antipsychotics go i have tried risperdal, xyprexa, seroquel, prolictin, all of which keeps my symptoms under control, with some side effects, however some put me to sleep much longer than i'd hope (seroquel) the risperdal is not enough and is given to me along with prolictin which as of last night has yielded 11 hours of sleep. I have not been happy with my sleeping hours as they keep me from seeing my dentist and regular doctor and very often I will have to stay up during the day just so i can keep my psychiatrist appointment which unlike the other two cannot be pushed aside. i've tried the risperdal, xyprexa, and seroquel (along with trazodone) which according to my doctor i've tried all of the "new" medications to treat schizophrenia and have been moved on to a older prolictin (different classification of medication i dont know which but its either atypical or typical antipsychotic) to try to manage my sleep. I find that i dont go to sleep as easily as desired and that i sleep too much. seeing as i've tried all the medications that are new and moved on to a different classification of antipsychotic because of sleep i am wondering if it would be worthwhile or not to change psychiatrists to see if another will will have a different medication or might could possibly get my sleep under control with a medication. i would like to welcome any suggestions or comments as its very difficult for me to cope with the reality that i will live forever with odd sleeping hours and never experience life as normal people know it. either about medications to try or to find a new doctor, or anything. thank you