Bettina

Reverse....I PM'd you... Bettina

Well, I went to the physchiatrist this afternoon with my dad, and it didn't go well for me at all. Dad came in with me and after about 5 minutes the doctor told him he would have to go to the waiting room which made me a little nervous, to say the least. I wanted him to be there with me, but she said no. She sat across from me but wasn't too close and not at her desk. We talked about school, my singing, hobbies, the mall, my other hangouts, my taste in clothes, etc. I guess this was the warming up part. She had my medical records and blood work, and now wants to get my school records too, After a few more school questions, she started asking me these that I wasn't prepared for. -Did my parents or anyone else ever abuse me physically....No. -Have I experimented with, have, or currently taking any drugs.....No. -Am I sexually active.....NO! -Do I ever think of females as sexual partners...NO! -Do I think of boys....well....yes. -Do I drink....No....Smoke, No. -Do I think about hurting myself.... Geez no... -Do I think about hurting someone else....NO! -Do I have nightmares often....No, but sometimes. After more of these one liners, she got up and went to her desk and began typing something on her computer. Then she sat back, looked directly at me, and wanted the whole story of why I think I need to be here. I told her all of it. Christmas, seniors, how I pick things up from people, all of it.... Funny.....it took me only about 10 minutes to explain everything....my whole life was told in 10 minutes. She then started pressing me on my mothers relationship with me. I never told her about my mother, and later my dad told me he never said anything either, so I think she got it from my GP. I wasn't prepared for this kind of questioning.... do I blame myself for her walking out on me, do I blame my father, etc, and when we were well into that I was starting to get very uncomfortable because of the material she was asking me about my mother. It was getting very very personal and I began to tear up which was the last thing I wanted to do in front of her. I didn't think it was going to be like this and I told her that too. She came over and sat down beside me....real close now and thats when I couldn't hold it in anymore. I'm not weak, but she really knows how to get you going. After calming down, I told her that whenever I get these episodes with seniors, children or animals, my mother is the last thing on my mind, and I don't want her to think that I still think of her, because I don't. I don't hate her either. I just don't want her to go down that avenue and blame it all on the relationship I had with her. I was here because I just want to know why I become Jessica, whenever a Jessica situation comes my way, why I become all those other people too and why I feel them so intensly to the point of throwing up and becoming sick to my stomach for days, and why do I know that some people are trying to communicate with me. If she didn't think I was a mental case then, she surely must think that now. There were a lot more questions and whenever I answered, she was clicking things with her mouse. If she is doing an online quiz, I could have done that too and saved the trouble of going there. Anyway, the whole appointment took 45 minutes and when I asked her what she thought, she said it was too early to make a diagnosis and that she wanted to look up some things and talk to another Doctor. However, she thinks I have a combination of symptoms, not just one. She mentioned Posttraumatic Stress, and other disorders I don't even remember. I have to go back next Tuesday but in the meantime she wants me to take a low dose of Fluoxetine for awhile. This is not working out for me and I don't feel well now. If any of you are interning in psychiatry, I could still use some opinions, or an online place to go that isn't on the quack side. Bettina

Since I agreed with Newtonian I take half the blame for the resonse. I apologize to you budullewraagh. I seem to be doing that a lot lately, turning on my brain after the fact. It's just a sensitive issue with me and I should have kept quiet......Phi was right. Bettina

Ditto....

When I was 14, some senior boys began calling me at my house and my dad went ballistic. I wasn't allowed to date even at 16 let alone with a senior. After politely turning them down, I was called a Lezbo (which I'm not) but that is the excuse they used for me not dating them. Funny thing is that the freshman, sophomores or juniors, never called me, it was only the seniors. I will never forget how angry my dad was. Lucky, nobody came to the door. Bettina

I'm sorry Dave I'm not picking on you personally. Bettina

This comment? Yes and No.....In adults, both parties are participating. In the Pedophile, one is innocent. Thats how this slime usually wins over his victim. Bettina Edit: I suppose in every court there are pedohile rights supporters.

Yes and No.....In adults, both parties are participating. In the Pedophile, one is innocent. Thats how this slime usually wins over his victim.

Hmmm.......ok, but this wasn't totally fair. The colors were not correct for the object which thru my mind off. Bettina... I hope you do this again....it was fun even though I couldn't get any of them.

GUILTY Call it a hunch. Bettina

Sad..... Geez....The more I read about him the more I liked him now. Bettina

Thanks for the clarification. That helps. It is so interesting when you see the problem of how to explain a Sphere to a 2D being. I placed myself directly into the 2D world and tried to imagine what a sphere looked like. Slicing up a sphere then compressing it so it has only 2 dimensions is one thing, but explaining that it was once a sphere is difficult. Bettina

I know this is basic, but I need to double check. A two dimensional being on a 2 dimensional world has only length and width. If he is driving around his planet can he drive in circles. In other words not just forward, back, and side to side. I'm reading about a fictional character trying to describe a 3 dimensional world to a 2 dimensional being, but it doesn't explain that part good enough. Can he drive around on a table in any direction? (except up or down) Bettina

Benign is good Now, can an anyerysm be strengthened or bypassed? I don't think its good to leave it as it is. Or am I wrong. Bettina

Is this something that can be fixed? I don't pray, but I'm wishing for you a lot. I sent you a PM too. Love Bettina

Sandi, Get in your car and GO!. I have my fingers crossed for you and I will be thinking of you until you call back. Please.....just go.. Bettina Edit: Sandi....there is nothing more helpful than seeing your mom. So just go.