Thank you so much for the comments
so iNow, you said to pick a subject that i like the most, and find interesting.
The problem with my mind is that i change my mind almost everyday,
i get new interests, i see something and i pull a 110% boost on that subject,
and then when the power of boost slows down.
So do my interest for it, i have a hard time locking my self too one thing and working my way up that specific thing, i don't seem to have that lock that people have.
I lost it some how, i am more open to things like for example i worked as a dj for a long time. So now i like all music genre i don't have a specific genre i like. And i studied medicine for a while worked as a medic, got more knowledge about medical know how from the army.
followed the path of the army a while, got a new intressed in training, been training for a long time now, got an intressed in math.
So i studied basic math for a while, the one thing i always liked most is computers/and programming.
Then i try to cut out everything else, and keep my focus on that.
But then i get the anxiety that i am missing out on other knowledge that is out there.
So should i keep on ignoring what my mind wants or just keep on reading up on all knowledge. or so on, comments are welcome!
any more insight please feel free to share.
Thanks!
some extra notes:
i don't have that determination to complete something just because i have to that is my problem as well
my persistence and dedication levels is on the down low, the only time i have a high persistence and dedication, is
when i am researching for that specific thing. I am curently intrested in but it slows down after the "boost" goes down,
how can you keep the persistence and dedication for a thing for a longer time, i think is the Technique i need to grasp.
In short, i think more then i do.. i am a dreamer